It's amazing of how you can finally admit something so personal and life changing to someone who understands and listens to you. I had such a bad afternoon and negative mind set to only end the evening feeling so much better on things and have a weight off my chest. Tonight was a hard thing to do, but once out I can see hope and a healthier me. It's great to have an amazing friend to come visit me and talk with me and understand my pain and allow me to come clean. God does work in mysterious ways and I can only imagine the doors that will now open in front of me for a healthier future. I have learned so much these last couple of weeks of what I need and now have a starting point. I am thankful for my buddy Pat. I have been taking so many things in my life for granted and can really say that I have a new found respect for what I have in my life. I have a chance to make things better in my life and I am the only one that can make that happen by letting go of past hurts, anger and pain.
I will be the me I know I haven't been in a long time.