Saturday, February 25, 2012

And yet another one out of no where........

So the last week I have been doing well on my new dosage of Topamax and my dizziness had gone away and I have been feeling great. Last night I was down stairs and I began shaking/shivering as if I was extremely cold and I wasn't.So I came upstairs and layed down into our bed and Em came out of the boys room and I remember telling her my head hurt and I went into a grand mal but it was different this time. I remember Em being with me and hearing her talk to me. She said it was worse than the last one I had and seemed very different. I was making a weird noise through my mouth and was having a hard time breathing. I didn't lose conciseness and kinda remember a good amount of it. It was very weird one this time. I also bit down on the side of my tongue pretty hard this time too.

I was very sore and groggy this morning when I woke up. But this whole thing is freaking me out. I have been doing so well and bam, another one. I just don't understand it. I am still getting used to the idea of living with Epilepsy. So I will be making another call to Dr. Rai Monday to let him know what happened. All day I have been freaking out as to why all of a sudden. It bums me out and I know that Emilee is worried as well.

Yet just because I am on meds and am "trying to eat better" is starting to make me think that I am not doing my best to get healthier. I was reminded today by a friends dad of a few things I need to do that will really make a hell of a difference and one of them is to quit smoking.. I need to do it, no excuses and with it I need good back up support as Emilee is also a smoker which makes it hard. I also want to try cold turkey.  A picture my daughter sent me recently was a good reminder of 3 inspirations I have to think of daily for me to be a better healthier man, father and person.


I have a lot of things to consider and reflection to do on my current actions and the new ones I want to accomplish to achieve better health.

3 comments:

Unknown said...

Your family is a wonderful inspiration to take better care of yourself. I love you and I know you will do well.

Peggy said...

Not sure why my comment didn't show my name...sorry!

Dan said...

I hear you, man. I've had epilepsy for almost 12 years, but was seizure-free for 11 until last November. I have had four since then, and then one in a telemetry program. I tried a new medication, Keppra, but it didn't work for me. Now I'm back on Dilantin and so far it's doing the job. But it's sure frustrating not knowing or understanding why or where this is coming from - plus wondering when/if another one will come. Kinda sucks. But I keep thinking things could be worse, and I am happy to have a great support system - my wife, parents and lots of friends who understand.